..listen to these words, read my thoughts..

Monday, March 05, 2007

and so it ends. my last day of school officially ended last thursday. as of this week i am officially unemployed. i no longer have that priviledge of being a full-time student. *sobs* what am i gonna do now? i don't have a clue. no idea whatsoever. please don't ask me why i'm up at 8am crapping about this. i do remember that there's a few belated birthday wishes i want to shout out.

23rd feb -> happy 20th bday nad!!! hope you had a great time at that cosy arab street hangout. (i know you did!) more phonecalls and coffee sessions babe!! love ya to the max!!

25th -> happy 21st bday anna!! woohoo!!! we've graduated babe!! not officially yet.. but exams are over!!!

27th feb -> happy 27th bday baby!! sniff sniff... mmm... you smell nice!! davidoff coolwater.. that's how you'll always smell like to me..

27th feb -> happy 21st bday saiful! haha!! nice pose you got there..

3rd mar -> happy 24th bday moni!! (i hope i didn't get your age wrong..) hehe!! when you gonna come get your prezzie from me? don't look at my pic pls.. that's a really bad pic of me...

4th mar -> happy 10th bday hendri!! i spent a lot of time decorating those cupcakes for you so you better appreciate it!!

ok i'm feeling a little hungry now.. breakfast time...

~the butterfly S C R E A M E D~
7:54 AM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

we don't even talk anymore
we don't even know what we argue about
don't even say "i love you" no more
the feelings that we had are no longer alive
some people will work things out &
some just don't know how to change

let's not wait till the water runs dry
we might watch our whole lives pass us by
let's not wait till the water runs dry
we'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
don't do it baby...

they can see the tears in our eyes
but we deny the pain that lies deep in our hearts
well maybe that's the pain we can't hide
cause everybody knows that we're both torn apart
why do we hurt each other
why do we push love away...

~the butterfly S C R E A M E D~
10:31 PM

i miss how we used to be
i miss our honeymoon period back when we were in love
we hardly talk anymore
we argue all the time & we don't even know what we argue about
we don't say "i love you" no more
you've changed, so have i
sometimes i wish we were like before
when nothing could have ever come between us
but now the moment's gone
bottomline, i'm not happy anymore
i think we both love each other very much
but we're not in love with each other
maybe that's what happened...
otherwise why would we hurt each other?

~the butterfly S C R E A M E D~
10:07 PM

Saturday, February 17, 2007

i love you so very, very much!!!

~the butterfly S C R E A M E D~
5:15 PM

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

my very first nephew!!!

Muhammad Firzan Agostin

born on 12 february 2007 at 5.54pm

at national university hospital

this little bundle of joy weighs only 2.54kg

and he's simply adorable!

~the butterfly S C R E A M E D~
9:19 PM

Saturday, February 10, 2007

i don't need somebody to complete me
i want you to know
i'll give up my love but I'm not giving up my soul

i belong to me
i don't belong to you
my heart is my possession
i'll be my own reflection
i belong to me
i'm one not half of two
and if you're gonna love me
you should know this baby
i belong to me

love don't mean changing who you are to be
who somebody wants you to be
nobody's got to belong to nobody

~the butterfly S C R E A M E D~
11:59 PM

honestly what will become of me
i don't like reality
it's way too clear to me

but really life is daily
we are what we don't see
we missed everything daydreaming

flames to dust
lovers to friends
why do all good things come to an end

~the butterfly S C R E A M E D~
11:54 PM

Thursday, February 08, 2007

oh wow! its the final stretch before graduation! hard to believe i actually made it through all the projects, reports & assignments. just have 1 more project to go before its finally over. final exams and then that's it. i can breathe again. watch out girlfriends! i'll be calling y'all up yeah.

planning to read some books. i'm not so much an author person but more of a story person. don't really remember which authors i like but more of reading whatever stories that i find interesting. plus, catch up on my weekly dose of movies. the latest one i caught was yesterday, the last king of scotland. interesting show, worth watching if you're into stories about political struggle, oppression, people that want to make a change in the world.. a little dose of nudity & sex, loads of death & mutilation, and a lot of unpredictability. you never really know what's gonna happen next. go catch it.

birthday's coming up this month: ian, nadia, anna, saiful, my brother hendra.... hmm.. many birthday wishes... no promises for presents...

~the butterfly S C R E A M E D~
10:42 PM

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

ok yeah.. thanx for telling me about the paper hafeez! its true. the makeup artiste girls & me were interviewed by berita harian. its the malay newspaper in singapore. the article appeared on monday. cameraman picked that shot of us doing the makeup demo. my face just happened to be the biggest in the shot. can't believe my aunts were all making a big fuss about it. i mean its just a newspaper article you know.. not like i won the nobel peace prize or something.

well besides that, i know my babygirls been bugging me to write a post cause frankly speaking my last post was like last year. so its way overdue but happy belated new year wishes to everyone. jan & feb is like the most stressed months i'm going to experience this year. final 2 months before i graduate. final assignments, final projects, final exams... gosh... that's damn fast.. scary actually..*sigh*

what are my plans for the future? i'll start working straight after graduation. in the midst of preparing my resume. i'll need to work and save up for august 2008. i'm really working hard for my big day and my dream vacation. making plans and starting early cause i want to make it happen. for the moment, i'm thinking from singapore -> tokyo -> los angeles -> orlando -> tokyo -> singapore. depending on what we can afford, we might head to manchester to watch a match at old trafford. that part is obviously not my idea but ian's. i'm pretty sure you all know why so no need for me to elaborate. as of now, its still just a dream so we're both working hard to make it a reality.

speaking of dreams, its time for me to fly off to dreamland. need to catch up on zzzzs cause seriously lack of it. sweet dreams yeah!

~the butterfly S C R E A M E D~
12:00 AM