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Friday, December 30, 2005

do you ever get the feeling that out of the blue, for no reason at all, you're suddenly thinking about the most unlikely person to ever cross your mind? i believe that dreams (and even nightmares) happen when your soul crosses gets caught up in your mind, intertwined with your thoughts and memories and feelings. more often than not, dreams and nightmares never make any sense. there's always an element of mystery and impossibility about it. you can never remember every single detail but the main focus is always there. sometimes it feels so real that you don't even know you're dreaming.

i had a dream last night. it was very strange but damn good. the surroundings were calm, peaceful and serene. white sandy beach, clear blue-green waters, exotic villa, wind in my hair. ian was in it. i know what you're thinking. how romantic rite? the shocking part was that james (ian's old friend) was in it too. it truly was a slice of heaven if not for what happened next. i can't remember much about what happened in between. i do remember that ian was in a room in the villa and james brought me out to swim in the ocean. i didn't even feel like i was actually swimming. it felt more like as if he was a dolphin and i held onto his fin. he was really taking me far out into the ocean and i remembered sharks in our midst. and just like that, he brought me back to shore and back to the villa. i was falling asleep to the sound of the waves crashing and the wind...

then ian was by my side and we were cuddling. then he said "do you want to marry me?". i replied "yeah, of course." and he swept me off my feet, carried me into another room where james was dozing off on a canopy bed. "hey man, mama five's gonna marry me." was what he said. this is the weird part. 'mama five'!? was that supposed to be me? doesn't make any sense rite? a lazy smile crept onto james's face and he left the room. i was rudely awakened by the sound of a phone ringing and my dream faded away into the abyss.

like i mentioned earlier, dreams never made any sense. i never believe what some people say about dreams. you know, the usual rubbish like the opposite of what you dream will happen in real life or whatever you dream will come true in the near future. dreams are just a way for you to escape from reality for a night. in my 18 years in this world, none of my dreams have ever come true. i definitely don't expect it to...

~the butterfly S C R E A M E D~
2:40 PM

Friday, December 09, 2005

ok.. i just fixed the time settings on my blog and now all my posts are dated wrong. guess this is the one entry with the correct time and date. anyway, today is papa's birthday. he's 46 now. we're all going to go have dinner at the banana leaf apollo restaurant at farrer park later tonite. can't wait to have tandoori chicken, fish curry, chicken masala, cheese and keema naan..... mmm... makes me drool just thinking about it..

speaking of food, there's this bazaar going on at school and they've got chocolate fondue. imagine fresh fruits, marshmallows and cookies on a stick and place right on a chocolate fountain... yes a CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN.... its like straight out of charlie and the chocolate factory only slightly smaller. so cool... wish i had a chocolate fountain. i wonder how they clean up at the end of the day.. i'm planning to get some later after tax lab session.

dee and zy dropped by for breakfast. they were from the gym.. haha!! zy was saying that she lost 200 calories. then i said " yeah... and u just gained it all back after eating macdonalds breakfast ".... =p ..... hey i'm digressing..

i really wanted to talk about my blog makeover. changing the settings was the first step. i'm thinking of putting in new pics but i don't know which to put in. hmmm.... i'll really have to think about that.... we'll see how it goes..

~the butterfly S C R E A M E D~
12:30 PM

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

i'm glad french oral is over. its nerve wrecking talking in front of a group of people in a foreign language. i had to write my own script and it wasn't exactly the best but i guess the simpler the better. that way i have a lesser chance of mispronouncing my words. but that's over and i think i did ok. by the way, which one of you said that my dress is like plastic? haloo!! its organza. the material is supposed to look different under the influence of different lighting.. plastic? hah!!

my four year anniversary is in 12 days. haven't made any plans yet. not sure what i want to do. or what we're doing for that matter. damn... its so hard to write when you're half listening to infocomm gibberish in ict class. i heard the word zombie. some machine used by hackers to spoil some systems......... shit! time's up...

~the butterfly S C R E A M E D~
1:10 PM