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Thursday, September 01, 2005

firstly, a big happy 1st month to ying jia & jason. may u guys have many more happy moments with each other and please spare me all the 'emo'. enjoy the shopping spree tmr!

i had an early nite yesterday. i stirred at 5.15am and he wasn't there, he wasn't in his bed. then i panicked. i called him twice before he finally picked up my call. his voice sounded sleepy. i asked him where he was and he specifically said "i'm outside". i nearly burst out screaming at him. i mean i thought he was sleeping outside in god knows where. i freaked out. i felt so worried when i open my eyes and he's not where he's supposed to be. i nearly broke down and cried. i mean like how can u not call me if u're gonna be somewhere else after work other than home. besides there's not a single good excuse in the whole world to explain why he'll be out at 5.15 in the morning when he should be sleeping at home. then he calmed me down. he said what he meant by outside was that he's sleeping at the hall on the couch. i just hung up the phone and went to the hall. i guess he must have fallen asleep while watching soccer or something. there were chips, empty nut wrappers, 7-11 plastic bags and a water bottle on the coffee table. he was still lying on the couch! i took his hand and dragged him back to his bed. he went back to sleep almost immediately after his head hit the pillow. sadly, i couldn't sleep so well after that. i had to get up for school at 6.45 anyway.

i dunno what got over me but i snuck in and crawled into his bed. i really miss him so much. i held him so tight like i'd never let him go. i looked up into his face and i said "baby, i've missed u". then he kissed my forehead and hugged me even harder. that was so sweet of him... that's why i'm so happy today... :)

then he called me in the afternoon, telling me he's working overtime tomorrow morning. i said ok. then it hit me... "wait, tomorrow's your off day. u're not supposed to work." he asked for overtime from 7am to 3pm. today, he's knocking off work at midnite. how the hell will he ever get any sleep!?

i guess my man really is crazy. but who cares!? i love him anyway........

~the butterfly S C R E A M E D~
1:59 PM